I realized today that I started this blog as a place for me, a place to be me, and really truth be told a place where there were no expectations of "me". The funny part is, I started a blog to be free to "just be" and yet I put myself in a box - AGAIN.
SO, I came up with a little list (OK really I'm "coming up" with said list as I type - yep - THAT'S ME).
I AM NOT...
*a fitness or weight loss blogger - i just can't talk about it that much, obviously - look at my sporatic posting!
*a english major. Who cares?
*a mommy blogger. I've read some really great mommy blogs - but it's just NOT me! I pretty much feel like a mommy failure most of the time.
*a fashion blogger - trust me you don't want to see my closet, or the things I wear sometimes.
*a food blogger. Actually, out of all of these this is the one I'd love to "try" the most, but first does anyone know a free dishwasher?
*one of these super cool girls I blog stalk all the time.
I AM....ready for this, it's totally mind blowing....
ME, and that's exactly who I need to start being, on here and IRL. This should be fun.
P.S. I thought about going back and deleting all of the wah, wah weight loss stuff, and or the "hello, is anyone there" - but one thing I can't stand is fake - and that stuff was me, that day and in that moment so deleting it would be like lying to you.....so if you like it read it if you don't - thanks for stopping by.
Showing posts with label just me. Show all posts
Showing posts with label just me. Show all posts
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Monday, August 22, 2011
When failing is a total WIN!
(I started writing this post this morning and it was long winded and becoming difficult to write. So, I'm trying a different style here.)
I had a realization about myself and my life this weekend, an epiphany if you will:
I AM NOT a leader! Is this a tough "pill" to swallow - Hell yes! Like one of those ridiculous antibiotic horse pills! Why? Because I have spent most of life being told or lead to believe that I'm a leader and that I'm good at it....I think they lied! Please understand the following comments are in jest and happy self realization - not putting myself down.
*They say I can hold people's attention - I think I might just demand it!
* They say I'm a hard worker and a great example - I think I am too hard on myself and expect to much from others sometimes.
* They say I have great ideas - I think too much!
*They say I'm good at giving directions - I can be bossy!! :)
All of the sudden I realized - I don't LIKE being the boss, being the only leader or being in charge! I like being the powerhouse behind the leader!
This made me realize that some of the "failures" in my past weren't failures at all, somewhere deep inside I was just trying to tell me to let me be me - the supporter NOT the leader! Now I know why being the Capt., the boss and the dominate spouse has NEVER worked for me! I also realize now that being the back up, the co-capt., the assistant and the supporter fits me so well and it makes me HAPPY!
Man, I could have saved myself some struggles and tears if I would have learned this a long time ago!
I had a realization about myself and my life this weekend, an epiphany if you will:
I AM NOT a leader! Is this a tough "pill" to swallow - Hell yes! Like one of those ridiculous antibiotic horse pills! Why? Because I have spent most of life being told or lead to believe that I'm a leader and that I'm good at it....I think they lied! Please understand the following comments are in jest and happy self realization - not putting myself down.
*They say I can hold people's attention - I think I might just demand it!
* They say I'm a hard worker and a great example - I think I am too hard on myself and expect to much from others sometimes.
* They say I have great ideas - I think too much!
*They say I'm good at giving directions - I can be bossy!! :)
All of the sudden I realized - I don't LIKE being the boss, being the only leader or being in charge! I like being the powerhouse behind the leader!
This made me realize that some of the "failures" in my past weren't failures at all, somewhere deep inside I was just trying to tell me to let me be me - the supporter NOT the leader! Now I know why being the Capt., the boss and the dominate spouse has NEVER worked for me! I also realize now that being the back up, the co-capt., the assistant and the supporter fits me so well and it makes me HAPPY!
Man, I could have saved myself some struggles and tears if I would have learned this a long time ago!
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Please pass the duct tape....
No, I don't plan on using it to wrap around my body to make my measurements smaller.....hey wait - would that work? Moving on! I need it for my MOUTH!
You see, sometimes I get just a little too excited about something, and I talk about it too much. Other times I get a little (OK maybe a lot) passionate about an opinion, and I talk about it. Then there is the case in which I say the same thing a few times over for no apparent reason. I get nervous, upset, a mushy mood, busy, stressed....I talk. Are we seeing a pattern here? I. TALK. TOO. MUCH!
This isn't news to me, and if you know me in "real" life, it's likely not news to you either, but here is the problem. Someone at work accused me a few years ago (by way of a supervisor) of lacking the professionalism to know when not to talk. This person wasn't accusing me of talking about things I shouldn't have or not knowing how to be confidential or anything like that, they were just saying that sometimes I don't wait - I just talk. At the time it upset me, and made me very defensive, surely - I didn't butt in and talk at inappropriate times - I mean come on, I talk a lot but I also know when to shut up!
Well a few years later, and a few years wiser and I realize that sometimes I do tend to assume that two people are having a casual conversation, and since I have a work thing to talk about - it won't kill them if I just interject for one minute to get the work done. After all, aren't I being the responsible employee in the situation? Instead of sitting around yakking about my weekend - I'M WORKING. So how can I be the one lacking the professionalism!?!?! Well guess what, I've realized that it doesn't matter if I need to talk about work when they are not, I should wait or send an email so I don't forget. Basically I need to learn when NOT to talk! Every time I catch myself saying "oh real quick I just needed to ask....", I end up walking away feeling like a loser. Someone please pass the duct tape, this is going to be a hard learning curve!
You see, sometimes I get just a little too excited about something, and I talk about it too much. Other times I get a little (OK maybe a lot) passionate about an opinion, and I talk about it. Then there is the case in which I say the same thing a few times over for no apparent reason. I get nervous, upset, a mushy mood, busy, stressed....I talk. Are we seeing a pattern here? I. TALK. TOO. MUCH!
This isn't news to me, and if you know me in "real" life, it's likely not news to you either, but here is the problem. Someone at work accused me a few years ago (by way of a supervisor) of lacking the professionalism to know when not to talk. This person wasn't accusing me of talking about things I shouldn't have or not knowing how to be confidential or anything like that, they were just saying that sometimes I don't wait - I just talk. At the time it upset me, and made me very defensive, surely - I didn't butt in and talk at inappropriate times - I mean come on, I talk a lot but I also know when to shut up!
Well a few years later, and a few years wiser and I realize that sometimes I do tend to assume that two people are having a casual conversation, and since I have a work thing to talk about - it won't kill them if I just interject for one minute to get the work done. After all, aren't I being the responsible employee in the situation? Instead of sitting around yakking about my weekend - I'M WORKING. So how can I be the one lacking the professionalism!?!?! Well guess what, I've realized that it doesn't matter if I need to talk about work when they are not, I should wait or send an email so I don't forget. Basically I need to learn when NOT to talk! Every time I catch myself saying "oh real quick I just needed to ask....", I end up walking away feeling like a loser. Someone please pass the duct tape, this is going to be a hard learning curve!
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Dear Reader:
Everything has a beginning right? Well, welcome to In between BEing! It is my hope that in between being all that I am everyday I will be able to come here and just BE me. I got addicted to the blogging world about a year ago with the first click on a friends blog, from there I started stalking blogs and before I knew it, blog reading became a huge part of my me time.
Oh wait...and then I remembered I started that one blog way back when to put pictures up of my kids.....yeah that blog hadn't been updated in a few years! Well anyway, my point is that over the year I have kicked around opening up that other blog as my blog and that didn't feel right. I've been inspired by food bloggers, weight loss/healthy life style bloggers and yes even a few of those mommy (and daddy) bloggers; I've kicked around a handful of blog names, I've worried about content and focus, identity and anonymity.....and finally I've told myself .....just BLOG it (too bad that blog name was taken)!
However you ended up here reading this first entry no matter if you are reading in 2011 or 2015, I hope you enjoy yourself while you are here. I can't promise you that I will always have the best ideas, the best posts or perfect grammar; but I can promise that I will have fun doing it.
Oh wait...and then I remembered I started that one blog way back when to put pictures up of my kids.....yeah that blog hadn't been updated in a few years! Well anyway, my point is that over the year I have kicked around opening up that other blog as my blog and that didn't feel right. I've been inspired by food bloggers, weight loss/healthy life style bloggers and yes even a few of those mommy (and daddy) bloggers; I've kicked around a handful of blog names, I've worried about content and focus, identity and anonymity.....and finally I've told myself .....just BLOG it (too bad that blog name was taken)!
However you ended up here reading this first entry no matter if you are reading in 2011 or 2015, I hope you enjoy yourself while you are here. I can't promise you that I will always have the best ideas, the best posts or perfect grammar; but I can promise that I will have fun doing it.
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