When failing is a total WIN!

(I started writing this post this morning and it was long winded and becoming difficult to write.  So, I'm trying a different style here.)

I had a realization about myself and my life this weekend, an epiphany if you will:

I AM NOT a leader! Is this a tough "pill" to swallow - Hell yes!  Like one of those ridiculous antibiotic horse pills!  Why?  Because I have spent most of life being told or lead to believe that I'm a leader and that I'm good at it....I think they lied!  Please understand the following comments are in jest and happy self realization - not putting myself down.

*They say I can hold people's attention  - I think I might just demand it!
* They say I'm a hard worker and a great example - I think I am too hard on myself and expect to much from others sometimes.
* They say I have great ideas - I think too much!
*They say I'm good at giving directions - I can be bossy!!  :)

All of the sudden I realized - I don't LIKE being the boss, being the only leader or being in charge!  I like being the powerhouse behind the leader! 

This made me realize that some of the "failures" in my past weren't failures at all, somewhere deep inside I was just trying to tell me to let me be me - the supporter NOT the leader!  Now I know why being the Capt., the boss and the dominate spouse has NEVER worked for me!  I also realize now that being the back up, the co-capt., the assistant and the supporter fits me so well and it makes me HAPPY! 

Man, I could have saved myself some struggles and tears if I would have learned this a long time ago!